Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Has it been a year?

Today is July 4, 2007 and yes McKenna had her 4th birthday yesterday. I am not sure why I stopped writing in this blog a year ago. I think it had a lot to do with the unexplainable reason that I lost a near and dear friend to me about the same time last year that introduced me to this blogging. I will never understand how and why people disappear and would exzuberantly and genuinely apologize for what ever it is that I do that makes them disappear. But it has been an interesting year.

In August, after asking Aaron and trying to work with him numerous times, we were still getting nowhere. He did not file for the divorce like he said he would, even after the tax thing, so hired a lawyer. We met, I paid him and he started working on the paperwork. I went back to work after the summer to half of the classroom we used to have, one less teacher and more students than before. Interesting how administration thinks.

In September, I was still waiting for paperwork to be completed. Aaron to get his info to the lawyer and kept living life. I did make the very difficult decision to not to go to the family get togethers celebrating family birthdays. I kept thinking about the definition of insanity, you know, continuing to do the same thing expecting different results. I kept going with a smile on my face as if nothing was wrong and continued to be judged, hurtful things said and avoided ... no big white elephant in that room huh? When Alyssa made reference to how my sister-in-law and two of her friends a treated me, I realized I was not setting a very good example plus it was just painful. So I made a decision, completely fearful that I would be considered selfish again, but in hindsight, it was a good decision.

Ocotber came and went with little progress and uneventful. McKenna dressed as Tinkerbell for Halloween.

November, my sister and I decided to meet in Myrtle Beach for Thanksgiving instead of having the traditional family dinner. She sees and understands how I got to my decision in September. Thisis the first Thanksgiving in my life that I did not spend it with my mom and siblings. We had a wonderful time! Might be something we continue to do. I was told by the lawyer that he would be working on my case over the Thanksgiving weekend and would contact me.

In December I did not hear from the lawyer and I did not call to push because of the holidays.

Finally in February I got the lawyer moving again and we served Aaron with papers.

I will have to move to another blog for that one!